Saturday, May 31, 2008
* why do you dislike me so much
* why am i so worried
* why do i even care
* why do you not get it
* why do you treat me like a child
* why is enough never enough
* why do i work so hard
* why is the floor sticky
* why am i not invited
* why do you ignore them
* why is it always so hot in my room
* why does it never go as planned
* why are you so smug
* why do you get so frustrated
* why does it matter if we go
* why don't you come and see me
* why don't you get along
* why do we even bother with the last week of school
* why do i get straight hair and you get curly
* why do cats and dogs hate each other
* why are you still reading this
* i type without using my pinkys
* i refuse to buy generic cereal
* i am embarrassed about my lisp
* i can get by on 2 hours of sleep a night on a regular basis
* i love animals but i refuse to pick them up
* i did not want kids until i had one, and then i wanted more
* i am so self conscience that i make myself sick
* i was on the dance team in high school,
* i wanted to be a rockette or a dallas cowboy cheerleader
* i am mean to the people i love when i am frustrated
* i love mexican food
* i have tons of gray hair so i dye it
* i give my kids cereal for dinner once a week
* i think you are all better moms then i am
* i don't like to cry in public because i think it makes me look weak
* i love the beach, but i HATE sand
* i can read a book in one sitting if everyone leaves me alone
* i am a middle child
* i took my parents for granted the first half of my life
* i NEED a vacation
* i want to look nice but i am not willing to take a ton of time getting ready in the morning
* i need validation, but i do not want you to know that i need it
* i like to swing
* i like doing laundry, but i do not like folding it
* i want to ask you 'why'
but it is never enough.
I do what I think you want me to do,
but it is never enough.
I try and be myself,
but myself is never enough.
When can I say enough is enough?
I want you to see me.
I want you to hear me.
I want you to know me.
Enough is enough.
Yes that is right...IF I go. Starting at about midnight last night Haley and Abigail took turns throwing up every 20 to 30 minutes. First Haley and then Abigail and then Haley and so on and on until morning. It was sweet. (Lewis and I had to get up early to take his car in to some work done on it at 8am too.) And with his poor back still hurting him I was the one that was up and down every time they started to cry. Luckily for me every time they get sick they both start crying really loud first so I have time to run in their rooms and get to them before there is an accident.
The only good thing is that both Jason and Adam already had this and it only lasts about 12 hours. Both of the boys were fine by dinnertime on the same day. Some of the kids at school have had it too and it only lasted about 12 hours for them as well. I guess we will see!
Friday, May 30, 2008
I need "nice dress" for a dinner tonight downtown. I have nothing to wear. I have my 1 skirt that I wear all of the time to everything! Church, concerts, events, weddings, and even FUNERALS. It is pink pleated. I bought it when Adam was in first grade. I am not exaggerating at all. It is my only skirt. Oh, and I do not own any dresses.
Sigh. Too late now. I have to get the babysitter in 25 minutes.
Thursday, May 29, 2008
I can drop Haley off at Corner Canyon (preschool) at 8am. Take Abigail with me to work for an hour. I need to leave for the studio at 9:15am. I need to figure out what to do with Abigail from 9:15am until 11:45. Hmmmm.... I can get one of the other moms from preschool to get Haley and take her to Channing and leave her in the library with Pam for 45 min. until I get back but Abigail is the problem. Think. Think. Think....
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
shoe shopping is this: it is simple. You know what you like, you know your size. You do not have to worry if your but looks big in them. (Pretty much all heals make your butt look better anyway.) Shoes can change an ordinarily outfit into extraordinary. So here they are. My cute shoes:
OK, SJP (if you don't know who this is then just stop reading), they are not Manolo Blahniks, Jimmy Choo, or Christian Louboutins, but they are totally cute and for under $30.00 they are a steal. Cute with carpi's, jeans or skirts.
I used to own about 40 pair of shoes that I would wear on a regular basis. Then I had more then 1 child. I changed to tennis shoes, flip flops or plain old brown "Jesus-type biblical sandals. Very ugly and very boring. I still own these and I still wear them. If you have kids then you know that a time and a place for all of these shoes (well maybe not the ugly brown sandals, but they are so comfy. I try to never wear them in public though). The cost for pretty shoes was too much when you also have to buy cute tiny Jordan basketball shoes for a 1 month old infant.
So I was going to tell this awesome story about my first really great pair of shoes, but I can't find the picture that goes with it. I am going to have to save that for another post!
Monday, May 26, 2008
I have tried to write this twice and it has not worked right either time, so here is attempt #3.
I hate Utah News Anchors. On a whole they report stupid news. The top news stories each night are usually crap about birds, or a cat got hit by a car, that kind of crap. I have met some of these news anchors and they do not seem very bright. I am sure that some of them are great, awesome, smart news finders. Tonight I would like to crack on Channel 2 News Sunday Sports guy.
He shows a clip of a "Viral Video" that is going around the internet. It shows Kobe playing with the guys from JackAss (MTV show that Lewis and I used to love). He is jumping a pool of snakes and dunking a basketball. Looks totally fake. So this sports guys says, "Thanks Kobe!" like he is a personal friend or something. WHAT!?! Where has this guy been? Does he not know that thanks to Kobe the Jazz are no longer playing for the rest of the season? Thanks Kobe? Hey buddy... if you like Kobe, then move to L.A.
The girls having lunch inside because of the weather:
The girls being silly at lunch:
Running into cousins at Walmart:
So Memorial Day wasn't exactly what we wanted. We had a plan. A plan to go swimming, hiking, picnic, and Shaved Ice. Instead we got rain, lightning, and wind. It is OK though because Lewis can't walk and Jason is sick. Lewis hurt his back and then his left leg. It huts to walk, sit, and lay down. Sorry Lewis! Jason has been sick all day. I am not sure what I am going to do with him tomorrow. I have 2 choices:
1. Leave him home alone
2. Bring him to work with me and let him sleep and watch movies under my desk while I work. (Haley did this about a month ago when I had to go in and work when one of the ladies called in sick.)
I am leaning toward option #2.
*flags and flowers
My favorite memories of Memorial Day growing up were swimming, BBQs with my dad's office, family picnics, military parades, and concerts. I lived more then half of my life on or near a military base. Many of you may not know this about me but I am a very patriotic person. I love this country. I respect and support the troops that serve both inside and outside of these United States. My father, father-in-law, brother, and grandfather, and close friends have all served in the military. My love goes out to all of you who have, are and will serve in the military service, and their families.
Sunday, May 25, 2008
We have been offering the girls to go get their ears pierced for about 2 years now. We told them that when they get their ears pierced then they can go to Bath and Body Works and pick out a sweet spray for herself. Haley said when wanted to wait until she was 8. She will have it done then. Abi said she wanted it done now. She did not want to wait at all. She wanted to go to the mall today. So right then we drove to the mall. We went strait to Claire's. I thought that she would still change her mind. We were the only people in the store so Haley started looking around for pretty stuff for herself. Abi went up to the lady and said that she was there to get her ears "pursed". The lady looked at me and I nodded yes. So she showed Abigail the earrings. Abi chose her birthstone, ruby. I set her in the seat and she grabbed the stuffed bear that the store has there for the kids to hold. She noticed that the bear had her ears pierced too. That made her laugh. The lady took about 5 min. to get set up. By then there were quite a few people in the store. When the lady was about to start the piercing they all stopped to watch this tiny person get her ears done. Abigail was brave. I told her it would hurt at first and she said that was fine. Then the lady did the first ear. Abigail looked at me, and her face started to get that nervous look, but she did not cry. She said, "Ouch! Mom, will you hold my hand for the second ear?" So I did and she was done. No crying, no whining, nothing. She looked at herself in the mirror and thought they were beautiful. The strangers all started saying what a brave and smart girl she was. They told her she was wonderful and that she should be proud of herself. She was ecstatic! We paid and were out of there. We had to go right into Bah and Body Works. She wanted the spray right then and there. She picked out a small bottle. She carried her bags through the mall all by herself. She keeps telling me that she is a big girl and that she loves her earrings. She is also telling people that it did not hurt at all. I am glad that she had a good experience.
Here it is up close.
This was left on my doorstep. Haley said, "A guy in a truck went into our driveway, got out and left it on the doorstep." Hmmm... A secret admirer? The lotion scent is PASSIONFRUIT! Thanks, whoever you are! (I am sure someone made their husband bring it over.)
I also got a cards from wonderful Marty and Allison, Grams, Grandma Yoder, and Alain and Donna. Thanks!
Saturday, May 24, 2008
WHAT??? Don't say that! Don't say that!! Oh Crap What?!?! My mouth was full of stuff and I am trying to say "WHAT?? What is wrong??"
So he gets up and looks at the x-rays for what feels like an hour and then sits back down. He says, "There is good news and there is bad news. Good news is you do not need a root canal. Bad news is your 2 fillings flanking this tooth are crumbling out. They are about 12 years old and the fillings do not fill the tooth properly. Do you want me to fix them now or wait for later?"
I knew that the teeth felt weird but I had no idea that the fillings were bad so I tell him to just fix them now while I was numbed up and in the chair. Plus since there is no root canal it will be cheaper and I can have the other teeth fixed while I am here. So he gets me all fixed up and I go out to pay. YIKES! I was wrong. It was supposed to cost about $500 and now it is costing me $925!!! Oh well it had to be done. My mouth is sore and he says it will be for a while. Eat soft food and drink water. Sweet.
I went home and went to bed and slept for a while and then watched a movie with Lewis. National Treasure 2. We had already seen it in the theaters, but I wanted to watch it again. I liked it, but not as much as I liked the first one. I LOVED the first one. I think in this one he figured out the clues too easily. Plus my mouth hurt so bad that I was having trouble paying attention. Then I remembered...I had to work in the kitchen on Wednesday because Mel was not coming in. Oh joy.
After we ate we were just chatting while waiting to go to the movies, when we noticed a ton of people standing outside the theater. So we got up and went out side. This is what we saw...
Obviously a fire alarm had gone off and everyone had to get outside. They never used the water so it might have been someone smoking in the bathroom or a popcorn debacle. After about 45 min. they let everyone back into the movie theater. It was funny to watch all of the people race to get to the desk to see what they could do about the movie that they were forced out of. They announced that everyone could go and finish their movies and that all of the times for the rest of the night would be pushed back by 45 min. to an hour. So we had a little fun while we waited for the movie to start.
I was too short to get my face through the opening so I had to stand on the fence behind the cutout, but I had to do it because it was McDreamy.
The movie was...well I won't say because many of you will not have seen it yet. I thought Harrison Ford looked good for his age. Personal opinion. I have always like Indiana Jones. It was a fun evening overall. Happy Birthday Marlo!!
Monday, May 19, 2008
At about noon we went to Costco where we saw quite a few people that I know from both church and Channing. (Hi Jen!) We got the few things that we still needed and the kids had samples to eat. Then I went to to my mom and dad's house to see my Uncle Joe that was in town this week teaching a quick class at The University of Utah. Later in the afternoon we took the kids to the park to play. We got them home and to bed early and Lewis and I had Goodwood for dinner and watched The Office marathon for a while. I finished the day by doing some laundry and watching a movie called P.S. I Love You. It was an unfulfilling movie that did not live up to the hype.
Overall the day was fine. Turning 30 was not quite the experience that I thought it would be. Subdue, quite and slow. I still have a few things planned. Thursday night we are going out with Marlo for her and my birthdays. Then I will have a dinner with my parents to celebrate in a week or so. And last but not least Vegas. The girls will come through and we will go for a couple of nights to Vegas for my birthday. Now, I just need to find the time, the girls and the money!
Happy 30Th Birthday to Me!!
While we were there we saw McGruff the Crime Dog! It was like a dream come true. Well, not a dream but it was a funny thing to embarrass ourselves. Here Angel and I are enjoying the dog's company. Or is it him enjoying our company?
So I know that I have a lot to catch up on so I am going to try and get it done tonight. Happy Reading!
Saturday, May 17, 2008
Thursday, May 15, 2008
It seems like just yesterday they were tiny eggs in a nest.
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
So I am in the mist of a heavy debate with my friend reddirtgirl. She suggested that I write about it on my blog to get it out and see what everyone else thinks. So here I go....
I LOVE Edward. She loves Jacob. I sort of understand the Jacob appeal (sort of, kinda, but not really). Here is a short list of reasons that I love Edward:
*he is beautiful
*he is smart
*he is charming
*he is protective of the ones he loves
*crooked smile (to show he is not perfect)
*he is a true gentlemen
*wants Bella to live a full life and enjoy everything she can while she is alive (he doesn't want to turn her into a vamp)
* and the most important reason of all is that he was willing to give Bella up to keep her safe and happy
People say that Edward is the possessive one. What I see is that Jacob is the one who looks at Bella as a prize to possess. I think that part of the reason he wants Bella so bad is because he is aware of how much she means to Edward and we're all aware of how much Jacob detests Edward (and vice versa). Edward is the one who has her best interests at heart. Did we all not read that in 'New Moon'? When Edward left her it showed true love. He thought she would be safer and better off without him.
Another fact to remember is that Edward and Bella actually fell in love with each other. Jacob has just been pining for her constantly, despite her obvious love for Edward. (Eventually she says she also loves Jacob, but who can deny the kind of love and attention that Jacob gave her? Nobody, even I might fall for a werewolf if he treated me the way that Jacob treats Bella. And I am a Vampire lover through and through!)
Even though Edward loves her to the point where he would give up everything for her, he still gives Bella a choice, so that SHE can be happy. (And BTW she picks Edward.) From what I see about Jacob, he wants her and intends to get her whether she likes it or not. He does not want to give her a choice. In his mind he is the ONLY choice. He will not give up on her no matter what she says, clearly implying that his infatuation with Bella is indeed very selfish and one-sided.
So I pose my question. You know my answer.
Edward or Jacob?
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
Monday, May 12, 2008
1.the domination of one's thoughts or feelings by a persistent idea, image, desire, etc.
2.the idea, image, desire, feeling, etc., itself.
3.the state of being obsessed.
4.the act of obsessing.
Kendra's official definition of Obsession is: An irrational preoccupation
Synonyms of Obsession: Fetish, Mania, Fixation
Do you have an obsession? I do. It is hard for me to admit. It demands my attention 24 hours a day. I find myself thinking about it when I am working, when I am playing with the kids, when I am watching TV, and when I am sleeping. Yes I am so obsessed that I am dreaming about it. It is beginning to drive me insane. I Google it. I read people's blogs about it. I watch interviews about it. I go to the websites. I talk about it to anyone who will listen. I want to know all that I can about it. I need to know all that I can about it. I never have enough. I am silly when I am with it. I believe whatever it wants me to believe. I want to understand it more. I heard about people who had a party with it. I wanted to go. I always want more. It can never be enough.
I eat, sleep, and breathe it.
I need it.
I am admitting to myself and all of you.
I am obsessed with it.
Obsession is a dirty problem. Do you know my obsession?